23 years ago I left my familiar safe world of married, family, perfect home, perfect everything. Although my entire world did seem perfect to the entire world … inside, where “She Said” had been silenced for so very long…my Spirit was far from “home.” In fact, I remember feeling like my light was going out.
In one defining moment, I shifted and broke free. It was not easy. I’ve come to realize that these defining moments/ invitations/urgent messages never are … easy.
The very first piece of art I purchased after this major shift was by an artist “Sticks” with the message printed upon a piece of wood that had been loosely formed into an Angel…
“for a long time … she flew only when she thought no one else was looking.”
I cried buckets. It had been true of my life.
After all of these years, I can say that I have learned to fly. I fly in solitude. I fly in crowds. Sometimes I fall flat on my face as in my takeoff, my wings may have become iced with poor judgment. Perhaps in that moment, I had eaten yet one more serving of junk food only to realize that yep…just no longer fulfilling. Then I turn to the highest fruit on the tree of life where I can be nourished by the truth of my path … my Purpose.
Life is wonderful. The Journey is filled with intrigue … with great insights and rewards.
Even when we fall.
My Pops used to love this little saying:
“I asked Life for a penny…and Life would pay no more. At the end of each day I would sit…and count my scanty store.
Life is a just rewarder…she gives you what you ask; but…once you’ve set the wages, then you must bear…the task.
I asked Life for a penny…only to learn too late;
that any wage
I would have asked of Life,
Life would have willingly … paid.”
Yep…for a long time she flew only when she thought no one else was looking…
but … no more.